Has this ever happened to you ? you pick up a book and a sentence leaps off the page as if it had been just written for you...a piece of your life. Or you hear a revelation in the lyrics of a song. Sometimes god seems to whisper in your ear.
One ordinary morning (2day !!) i realised i was really exhausted emotionally and physically from concentrating on things i wanted to have but couldnt afford. I felt trapped in a vicious circle. The more i focussed on what i cudnt have , the more depressed i became. the more depressed i became, the more i focussed on lack.... i continued to suffer for hours like that. But then later in the day i opened my eyes and looked at my life...nt with a desire for more but with a feeling of serenity. I realised i had much for which i should be grateful about. I regretted that i took for granred the abundance that already existed in my life. How could i expect more when i cudnt appreciate what i already had ??
Immediately i made an inventory of my life's assets :
-my health
-loving parents
-many wonderful friends
-a BIKE
-an unlimited internet connection
-a nice home
-good food...................
i mean what else could i ask for. Once i started, my list grew . Finally i came to an inner awareness that my personal worth couldnt possibly be determined by my account balance which is ofcourse non existant as of now....
So all i ask you to do is to open the eyes of your eyes and give your life another glance....ask if your basic needs are met ?? Do you have a home ?? Food ?? clothes ?? Do you have friends n family whom you love and who love you ??
Then pause for a moment and give thanks...Light up the darkness.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
Lost my virginity on the road 2day....
Don't get ideas people...its just that i got chalaaned for the first time . My crime: " overspeeding "
It was 10:45 in the morning. I was goin to pick up my friend on the way to college. And i was getting late. Still i kept my cool. It was just a matter of croosing the flyover before i reached a broader road where i could SPEED up. So i relaxed...wind blowing through my hair ( ofcourse AC ki thandi hawa ) and listening to Adnan Sami i was literally gliding thru traffic in my santro... I was at 60 ks and going downhill.
So as i reached the nadir of the flyover and moving further, through the corner of my eye i noticed a strange , fat , big creature in white flashing its teeth at me. A fraction of a second later i noticed similar creatures : one clawing at my side of the car glass and the other ready to pounce on the bonnet of the car... It was then that i recognized the ubiquitous traffic policeman aka "thulla"... and from the expressions on their faces i assumed that it was smthing important... so i stopped . I got out of the car and was soon surrounded by six of these six foot high fat policemen... fr the first time i felt like a dwarf ( i'm 5' 9.5"....lol) and realized that i had fallen into their trap.
My crime was overspeeding : 60Ks while going down a flyover wich is pretty acceptable..but the thulla was unwilling to listen. And then MURPHY's LAW came to affect... He dismissed my driving licence as being a duplicate !!! ( wich it was actually...i keep the original with my bike papers...lol).. neway after much vehement pleadings n beggings n intervention by a sweeeet lookin aunty, the thulla charged me only for overspeeding... by quoting " chalo fir aap bas 900 rupees hi dedo ".... HERE i must mention that i did try my hand at bribing him too... offered him 400 bucks for pardoning me but surprisingly he didnt yield..( mayb his superior was there too)i'm nt sure coz i actually did see a hint of smile on his face on listening to my offer which quickly disappeared in a flash as if being woken out of a dream..... So i had no option and being short on cash had to deposit the car's RC with him which he neatly folded and put in his pocket with his DRIED PAAN stained fingers..ooooeeee..yuck..
Still dismissing 900 bucks as being a meagre sum isint done... i mean it could buy you a stack of about 65 DVD-RWs..wat more can you ask for.... you could even go for a sumptous meal at
UPSC for days and even then it wouldn't finish. Numerous things you could do withthat amount of money but for a trivial judgement error...( yea dats what i call it )..had i been a lil faster nobody could have stopped me. They wudnt have dared.
Anyhow i'm still happy about losing my virginity on the road..( figuratively).. my first chalaan you see. And now i even sympathize with the hundreds of other ppl who face a similar ordeal of lookin at their hard earned money disappear inside the pockets of the thullas... in return for a pink coloured , flimsy , foul smelling piece of paper... saad. ( i used to laugh earlier)..its funny how people change. But i seriously feel that there should still be some student concession..nai ?????
It was 10:45 in the morning. I was goin to pick up my friend on the way to college. And i was getting late. Still i kept my cool. It was just a matter of croosing the flyover before i reached a broader road where i could SPEED up. So i relaxed...wind blowing through my hair ( ofcourse AC ki thandi hawa ) and listening to Adnan Sami i was literally gliding thru traffic in my santro... I was at 60 ks and going downhill.
So as i reached the nadir of the flyover and moving further, through the corner of my eye i noticed a strange , fat , big creature in white flashing its teeth at me. A fraction of a second later i noticed similar creatures : one clawing at my side of the car glass and the other ready to pounce on the bonnet of the car... It was then that i recognized the ubiquitous traffic policeman aka "thulla"... and from the expressions on their faces i assumed that it was smthing important... so i stopped . I got out of the car and was soon surrounded by six of these six foot high fat policemen... fr the first time i felt like a dwarf ( i'm 5' 9.5"....lol) and realized that i had fallen into their trap.
My crime was overspeeding : 60Ks while going down a flyover wich is pretty acceptable..but the thulla was unwilling to listen. And then MURPHY's LAW came to affect... He dismissed my driving licence as being a duplicate !!! ( wich it was actually...i keep the original with my bike papers...lol).. neway after much vehement pleadings n beggings n intervention by a sweeeet lookin aunty, the thulla charged me only for overspeeding... by quoting " chalo fir aap bas 900 rupees hi dedo ".... HERE i must mention that i did try my hand at bribing him too... offered him 400 bucks for pardoning me but surprisingly he didnt yield..( mayb his superior was there too)i'm nt sure coz i actually did see a hint of smile on his face on listening to my offer which quickly disappeared in a flash as if being woken out of a dream..... So i had no option and being short on cash had to deposit the car's RC with him which he neatly folded and put in his pocket with his DRIED PAAN stained fingers..ooooeeee..yuck..
Still dismissing 900 bucks as being a meagre sum isint done... i mean it could buy you a stack of about 65 DVD-RWs..wat more can you ask for.... you could even go for a sumptous meal at
UPSC for days and even then it wouldn't finish. Numerous things you could do withthat amount of money but for a trivial judgement error...( yea dats what i call it )..had i been a lil faster nobody could have stopped me. They wudnt have dared.
Anyhow i'm still happy about losing my virginity on the road..( figuratively).. my first chalaan you see. And now i even sympathize with the hundreds of other ppl who face a similar ordeal of lookin at their hard earned money disappear inside the pockets of the thullas... in return for a pink coloured , flimsy , foul smelling piece of paper... saad. ( i used to laugh earlier)..its funny how people change. But i seriously feel that there should still be some student concession..nai ?????
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Career seeking: it never ends...we'r only human
Its 1 oclock at night and though this is my fixed MOVIE TIME i've decided to give it up for today. And why not... i've actually thought about smthing worth writing .
Note: this wass highly classified..bt not now. still i hope my parents dont read this!!!!!
I distinctly remember that day: 3rd march,2001...my class tenth Social Studies examination. We were at the centre, me n my dad. It was the 25th time that he was telling me : " Beta, bas dis is the time. 3hrs ki mehnat and then you can have all the fun you want..."... Soon i was in 11th.. Life was getting tougher by the day. IIT dreams, peer pressure, girls, IIT dreams....a vicious cycle. It was then that i heard it again:" Beta, bas this is the time. You can either make it or break it. Bas 2 years ka effort, mehnat and then you can have all the fun u want... Bt if you let this time go you'll regret it for the rest of your life...". This time it sure was serious and for a change i did give it a thought... but u see its difficult to tame a wild horse. I moved on... Thus ended 11th and 12th followed the same fate but surprisingly for me ended on a brilliant note.. Though the IIT dream could never become a reality, i still managed to get into a reasonably good ENGINEERING COLLEGE.... i highlighted engineering coz this is what everyone wants to do...infact what everyone's folks want their children to pursue... ughhh were is dis leading to.. cmng back to what i was saying, the pursuit for a career never ends. We finish with smthng and then the next thing pops up suddenly... Let me continue where i left off. As soon as i entered college the same ADAGE was repeated once more.. with only a smaall change. Instead of 2 years it had 4 yeeeears... But this time smthng inside me stirred. Maybe it was dad's eyes or perhaps the girl on the bus stand ( early days before the carpool) i decided that this is the time to work things up. So i put my HEART and soul into studies (ehm ehm) and infact reaped up some extraordinary results.... Here i must mention that i too like many others had decided to pursue the "American Dream"...for details refer WIKIPEDIA. Anyway, thats what i wanted after engineering...4 yrs before the actual thing. But some people thought it was preposterous. It was foolish. Dad said that " everyone's doin MBA dese days and you want smthng which is out of VOGUE. This is not done. You have to set your priorities right." And so dat was dat. The " American Dream" ended before it actually began... Thus like thousand of others i too joined the herd to BELL the CAT !!!! Soon i entered 3rd year of my engineering studies and it was time to start the MBA preparations... The QUANT, VERBAL nd DI seemed fun and i thought if thats what MBA is all about i'm game for it. But u see appearences are deceiving. Dats is Nt what MBA is all about.. it is just the screening stage. What it actually involves is business studies and tonnes of presentations and seminars.... And i being the introvert ;) that i am..was already having jitters. And so it startd...the downfall. Exam after exam went by and no success... i did manage to clear the cut in a few bt that proved to be futile too.. But what surprised me was that dad remained very supportive throughout.... and sans the dreaded adage.
So finally with all my options exhausted, it was my dad who advised me to chase the "American Dream" !!!!! And i was like what the @#$%@@.... is this for real ?? And it was.. Cause it was then that i heard the ADAGE again !!!!! ....ooooh maaaan.. But this time i'm not giving it away. This time i'm prepared and all set to do what i have to do.. i have my priorities sorted out and strategy is all planned..
And so here i am in the final semester of the final year of enginnering, all set to enter the big bad competitive world... the higher study thingy follows suite. I was lucky enough to realise what i want from my life.. though got a bit late. But better to be late than never.... But as u all know: we are only human... and its human to want more... and so i guess the pursuit never ends... but i hope it does for me..
Note: this wass highly classified..bt not now. still i hope my parents dont read this!!!!!
I distinctly remember that day: 3rd march,2001...my class tenth Social Studies examination. We were at the centre, me n my dad. It was the 25th time that he was telling me : " Beta, bas dis is the time. 3hrs ki mehnat and then you can have all the fun you want..."... Soon i was in 11th.. Life was getting tougher by the day. IIT dreams, peer pressure, girls, IIT dreams....a vicious cycle. It was then that i heard it again:" Beta, bas this is the time. You can either make it or break it. Bas 2 years ka effort, mehnat and then you can have all the fun u want... Bt if you let this time go you'll regret it for the rest of your life...". This time it sure was serious and for a change i did give it a thought... but u see its difficult to tame a wild horse. I moved on... Thus ended 11th and 12th followed the same fate but surprisingly for me ended on a brilliant note.. Though the IIT dream could never become a reality, i still managed to get into a reasonably good ENGINEERING COLLEGE.... i highlighted engineering coz this is what everyone wants to do...infact what everyone's folks want their children to pursue... ughhh were is dis leading to.. cmng back to what i was saying, the pursuit for a career never ends. We finish with smthng and then the next thing pops up suddenly... Let me continue where i left off. As soon as i entered college the same ADAGE was repeated once more.. with only a smaall change. Instead of 2 years it had 4 yeeeears... But this time smthng inside me stirred. Maybe it was dad's eyes or perhaps the girl on the bus stand ( early days before the carpool) i decided that this is the time to work things up. So i put my HEART and soul into studies (ehm ehm) and infact reaped up some extraordinary results.... Here i must mention that i too like many others had decided to pursue the "American Dream"...for details refer WIKIPEDIA. Anyway, thats what i wanted after engineering...4 yrs before the actual thing. But some people thought it was preposterous. It was foolish. Dad said that " everyone's doin MBA dese days and you want smthng which is out of VOGUE. This is not done. You have to set your priorities right." And so dat was dat. The " American Dream" ended before it actually began... Thus like thousand of others i too joined the herd to BELL the CAT !!!! Soon i entered 3rd year of my engineering studies and it was time to start the MBA preparations... The QUANT, VERBAL nd DI seemed fun and i thought if thats what MBA is all about i'm game for it. But u see appearences are deceiving. Dats is Nt what MBA is all about.. it is just the screening stage. What it actually involves is business studies and tonnes of presentations and seminars.... And i being the introvert ;) that i am..was already having jitters. And so it startd...the downfall. Exam after exam went by and no success... i did manage to clear the cut in a few bt that proved to be futile too.. But what surprised me was that dad remained very supportive throughout.... and sans the dreaded adage.
So finally with all my options exhausted, it was my dad who advised me to chase the "American Dream" !!!!! And i was like what the @#$%@@.... is this for real ?? And it was.. Cause it was then that i heard the ADAGE again !!!!! ....ooooh maaaan.. But this time i'm not giving it away. This time i'm prepared and all set to do what i have to do.. i have my priorities sorted out and strategy is all planned..
And so here i am in the final semester of the final year of enginnering, all set to enter the big bad competitive world... the higher study thingy follows suite. I was lucky enough to realise what i want from my life.. though got a bit late. But better to be late than never.... But as u all know: we are only human... and its human to want more... and so i guess the pursuit never ends... but i hope it does for me..
ooops i frgt.... hai kya ye
welll i'm so sry... frgot to tell what is this going to be about... Umm......lets see...Right.. this is intended to be a collection of my thoughts and opinions and musings on daily happenings in my life.... and dat includes my frends ,family..everyone i know.., as well as all kinds of other stuff...movies, books(mayb.),gaaames, babes ;)... My sole motive is to write some really good posts to stimulate, to inspire, and sometimes just to make you smile.... i hope dat wasnt too heavy.. And maybe also to give you some food for thought... Bt fr know i'm back to choosin a name...;)..cheers all !!
my first time..
Hi everyone !! Welcome to "i havent finalised the name yet...l0l" So here I go. My first post. On my own blog. Ya, I am quite excited... bt this is really killing me too. The thought of giving another thing a name is a task that can be fun but at the same time a little (or a lot) daunting. There are many factors to consider ( has ne1 else given that name, what memories does it evoke, should you name it after an incident, etc etc etc) and so many ways to make the decision. What’s more, it’s a task that has some level of responsibility attached to it as in a person’s name is something that has an impact upon them for a lifetime....nd i guess so does a blog's name !!!!! Lemme think it over....
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