Desires ....

There is this innate desire to be in the limelight all the time. Maybe its because i was a major recluse as a kid and so i am making up for it now. ..lame

And i dont know why but i have this desire to take offence at the slightest offensive or "not meant to be" offensive remark and dont forget it for a long time. And the best part is that i wont even tell the people concerned why am i so uptight either. But you know, after the initial steam has ebbed, i start behaving normally with them which confuses them and they dont know how to react to it. I like that.

And finally i desire rather my dil desires ( in perfectly non se**** sense) someone... a girl ( ooobviously !! ) i really like her .. love ?? well yes i think so.. i do love her.. But u know its totally unselfish. I dont expect her to reciprocate .... coz it isint the what-wud-i-do-without-u kinda love.. its about knowing and desiring and being content with just that.

To be continued ?? maybe ... if i desire

Thoughts..... or whatever you may call them

Its 2010 and i dont know what to write ....lame. .. still ( just for the heck of it ...)

I don't know what to blog.

I cannot make conversations

I want to learn java.

I am caught up with 551

I care for my friends (they care for me even though they do not show it)

I had a mega fight with a girl-who-is-just-a-friend and it is rather bad. (She does not want to see my face) .... ( like she could see it neway ..sitting thousands of miles away.... lame)

I played Mafia Wars yesterday

I am desperate for a job.

I watched movies the whole day yesterday.

I just finished reading Dijkshatra's Algorithm.

I apologized to my friend and got no response

Di said the movie "Alice in wonderland" is promising

Tomorrow is Saturday

I am hard working but lazy

I have 2 mega assignments to do (If my counting is right .. proj3 and term paper)

I have major interests in photography (cannot afford equipments though)

I love the color blue

I will be learning java soon

I have not gone to college today

I am about to leave for gym

My ex girl-friend once said "Falling in love is easy but hard to maintain". It is true and i hate her.

And i don't always mean what i write.

I am bad at what I do but then the above statement holds true.

I play Mafia Wars in Facebook

I will learn Adobe Photoshop eventually

I need time to understand myself

I am complicated

I still dont have a job or an internship.

I need very much of attention

I want to own a Trimaran

I want to have 3 kids

I hope I can continue writing tit bits

I am still waiting for a response

I use Pirate Bay and mu torrent.

I love reading

I am missing my mom

I am loving Amreeka

I watch Pakistani roadies

Temptation Island is a great show.

If u are still reading this, then what can i say ..... you know it yourself ...

Random .....

The good part ......

A group of seven best friends ....

one all set to graduate from an IIM,

one all set to enter an IIM,

one all set to start working with SBI,

one already working as a scientist with ISRO,

one who's just started a promising career with NSN,

one handling a business of his own ...

As I scan the above list of 6 dudes, it just fills my heart with contentment. I feel proud to have friends like them. I love em.

Here's the sad part.....

But now when the bar has been raised so much who would believe the one last friend who hasn't been referred to yet, can be such a screw up . But you know, as it turns out, he is. I am. Such is life. Yet another days goes by. And I move on.